I just ate an entire pint of Ben&Jerry's Bonnaroo ice cream. And, it was worth every single one of those 1200 or so calories it contained. Coffee and malt ice creams...whiskey caramel...toffee candy...utter heaven!
So, now I should get my butt downstairs to the treadmill, but I really just want to relax (again). I have found myself thinking a lot more on my drives to work. I keep thinking about how much time I waste each day...and how much time I spend complaining about how little time I have!
I have become a complainer, big time. And I'm not super happy about that. I get so frustrated when people spend all kinds of time wishing they had this or that, and never stopping to appreciate what they do have. And that is the person I seem to be becoming.
This week has really done me in! All of my positive attitude is asleep! I've been getting up at 3 a.m. every day since Wednesday and the early morning hours are full of random thoughts!
What could I possibly be thinking about at 3a.m. (other than the memory of my warm bed and soft pillow slowly getting colder as I drive to work)?
I think about what I should do when I get out of work...which turns out to NEVER be what I actually do when I get out of work.
I think about what to blog about.
I think about all the little side projects I have started and let fall to the wayside. Clarinet, guitar, reading (the stack of a half dozen I've started)...CLEANING!
I think about shopping...I imagine how much fun it would be to take a day and just shop and lunch and hang out. And then I remember that I hate shopping.
I think about what to make for dinner...what to have for lunch.
And, lately I have been trying to decide if I have it in me to buckle down and really get some jewelry made to take to some of the little boutiques around here.
So, as I get closer to my day off (just 4 days to go now), I have been thinking about what to do with the day. I am HOPING to get some work done. I'd love to get a couple pieces working, maybe take some time to do some sketches to work from, since that seems to help once I get into the studio.
I've actually learned something about myself this week. Even though I often complain about not having enough time to do everything, I know that I do not use my time wisely. I COULD do everything I want to do, and work two jobs. And I've decided that I will.
I've already been adding in home cooked meals every night. Which, of course, calls for menu planning and the dreaded grocery shopping. I've slowly been clearing out my basement, taking a bag or two back to the redemption center after work now and then. Working out is also getting some time, though not as much as it used to...that is my goal next week, to put exercise back at the top of the list. Unfortunately, I've gotten into the mindset that it's either gym or studio...I am on a mission to do both.
I want to be that girl who can do it all. I want to be bad ass.
From now on, I'm on a mission to stop making excuses!